Friday, December 16, 2011

More of my 'weirdness'

Ever since my aneurysm, you know I get easily confused about the simplest things! So here is something I just thought I'd mention for those who find these things fascinating (like I used to, but now the fascinating is just daily life).  I have a terrible time with the numbers 6 and 4.  My brain pretty much uses them interchangeably when it comes to new information.  So, if I am trying to remember a number (that is NOT in my 'long-term, pre-aneurysm brain' already), I pretty much never know if I have it right or not involving numbers 6 or 4.  So weird, at least if I really focus hard on it, and reason through i,t I can usually get it right.  When taking down library numbers over the phone I usually have to have a person repeat the number at least twice before I can focus enough to get the numbers correct; it makes me feel so silly sometimes! The one thing that even when thinking about it I don't always get correct, is my right and my left.  You would think that a spastic left side or the chronic ache from a few craniotomies on the right side would be a pretty obvious clue, but nope!  It is pretty much a 50/50 chance of getting it right every time! Oh the joys of being me :-) I am thankful that my faith tells me, I am "fearfully and wonderfully made"

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Life in the S L O W lane!

 I try to just be amused at the things that "no longer occur to me".  For example, I was making cookie frosting for Nate last week.  I only had about half the amount of sugar I needed to make the full recipe.  Naturally, I decided to just cut the recipe in half, that should be simple enough, right??? Well, I actually managed the second grade math, for the first few ingredients, but then somewhere in the middle I simply forgot I was cutting the recipe in half.  The result: very runny, very almond 'extracty' cookie frosting.  It actually was pretty funny and mildly edible.  Next time, I will write down all the 1/2 measurements and only look at those numbers! We live and we learn!!!

The next day I was much less amused when I looked for my GPS holder before visiting a dear friend.  I really tore my Jeep apart, knowing it just HAD to be with the actual GPS unit!  After stopping what I was doing for a second and taking a deep breath (I was getting very frusterated, very quickly) I flipped the GPS unit over and guess what was already attached?? Yup, you guessed it, the GPS holder for my window.  At least I found my multiple extra sunglasses (I can't live without sunglasses outside, and see at least). I also now have a 'cleaned out' console and glove compartment!!  Just when I thought I could not be any less amused, I came home from a wonderful day with my friend.  I opened up my fridge and there right in front of me was the jar of garlic I couldn't find the night before.  I was exhausted the previous night and I knew it was there but just didn't see it.  So, I am laughing about it now and giving myself a little credit for at least trying.  Trying to make frosting from scratch, trying to make food that didn't come frozen in a bag, and trying to overcome my hermit like tendencies by visiting a friend!!

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Do You Trust Me??

One of my favorite scenes from a movie is the one below where Aladdin says "do you trust me?" then stretches out his hand to offer help.  It just makes my heart melt a little every time I watch it. 

Last night, I was fighting off a migraine and feeling very restless over the report of a 16 year old girl we know being found unconscious  in her bed when her parents went to wake her up for church.  I prayed for this family and tried to push my own migraine anxieties out of my mind.  As I lay there doing my deep breathing exercises, I heard those words running trough my mind, "Do You Trust Me??".  I knew it was a still quiet voice from the Lord reminding me for the millionth time HE alone is in control of all things, all the time! Silly me, I was looking at things like Jasmine, "is it safe??", I wanted to know.  You see 'magic carpet rides' defy human logic and reason.  We can not be assured of their safety, we just have to trust.  Our sermon this Sunday then popped into my mind (as it always does in the week that follows it).  Our pastor, talked about fully surrendering ALL areas in our life to Jesus, often times our own personal struggles are just areas of our lives we have not fully surrendered, and so a quiet voice in me said "yes, I trust you" and I drifted off to a restful sleep!!

Aladdin - Do You Trust Me?

Friday, December 2, 2011


If the Special Olympics had a brain injury division, I think it would have events like "making spaghetti for dinner" or "grocery shopping".  These would all be classified, not as sports like "skiing" or "ice skating", but instead, "things you all take for granted".  That just sounded like a game show, right?? Yes, these tasks feel like Olympic events every single day.  For example, tonight I went to make spaghetti with frozen Texas Toast.  Do you know I went down stairs two times to get the toast and both times I came up without it.  I did however, switch the laundry and get clothes out of the dryer but, NO TOAST for dinner.   Frustrated, I resorted to asking Nate to go get it for me!  I would have lost in that event, unless it was a relay!! What I should have done was write it on a piece of paper and carry it with me so when I got distracted the paper might remind me, oh well!Oh and I almost forgot the "answer a phone survey" event! Last night, I answered our house phone (I usually don't, but I was waiting for a doctor office to call back and sometimes the caller ID isn't very specific) The women on the other end asked for a male in the house old enough to vote.  "He can't speak with you right now", I said.  Before I knew it she had engaged me in the survey instead.  After 9 minutes of "rate this and rate that", on some unusual scale of 1-7 I stopped her and said, "I gotta be honest, I am just making up numbers, my brain is so tired I have no idea what you are talking about".  I then asked her how many more questions there were; she didn't know.  She could only tell me the survey usually takes 17 minutes and I had only 'endured' 9 minutes of it.  Out of annoyed exhaustion, I simply told her I was no longer going to continue with this 'pointless survey'.  I knew I needed to save some brainpower for making dinner (Olympic event #2 of the evening)  She wanted to call me the next day to finish, but I think she realized how pointless it would be and moved on to bigger and better things to annoy other people with!! I already had my mind set on not answering the phone anyway!!! Have a great weekend everyone!!  :-)