For days now I have been debating whether or not to post this silly story. I have finally decided I would, so here you go.......
Ever since my aneurysm I have a hard time telling dreams from actual life. This can be confusing and frusterating from time to time. Sometimes it makes me feel like I have completely lost my mind which, of course, scares me. My doctors aren't overly concerned considering what my brain has been through. Just the other day I was telling Nate how I drove past our old house and noticed they ripped all the gutters off. He asks me when I would have driven that way. Of course, I had no idea and realized it was a dream. We took a drive past the old house just to make sure! We found the gutters still attached and me frustrated by my silliness!
So with all that being said, Nate was out of town last week on an installation project with work. Someone at work asked me to fill in on Friday for her. I wrote it down in my planner and was all set to work Friday. She found that she did not need to to cover that day and called to let me know. When Friday morning rolled, around I had this thought that maybe I had "dreamed" that she called back. I panicked for a moment and totally didn't trust my own memory! I went to my planner and found the note about work erased and figured that it was a good indication I had not just "dreamed" it. I still did not totally trust myself though! I had to run a few errands near the library and stopped by to make sure Judy was there and to verbally verify that next Friday I was filling in for sure! Normally, Nate would be the voice of reason for me and it made me very thankful to be married to such an understanding guy!
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
My neurologist called me last week (maybe before) and told me the results of the EEG (Brainwave test looking for seizure activity) was "good". He called my cell phone while grocery shopping and says "Lisa, good news, we found brainwaves". Since I was in the middle of shopping my sense of humor was turned off at the moment. Also, when speaking on the phone I tend to take things way too literally because I get no 'body language cues' like when speaking in person (and that is even hard for me still). "That's good, right?" I replied. He apologized, recognizing that I seemed not like my usual self. He explained he was trying to make a joke. That made me relax and we had a good laugh about it. He is going to monitor my migraine auras to see if we can figure out a trigger and avoid more scans of the brain. Please pray that I could have a peace and not focus on these auras. You see, I have lost the "filter or cap" that keeps you from obsessing needlessly about things. I admit, this was never easy for me so you can only imagine how bad it is now! Love and Blessings!