Monday, December 2, 2013

Why TT,why??

*This is a post I wrote then saved and never published! I have edited it years later now and decided to finally post it!
Dearest B & B,
"Why TT, why," you say hundreds of times a day! Let me try to explain!! Before you were born, before your mommy and daddy were even married your TT got very sick.  There was a "boo boo" in her brain.  God helped your TT get better and she lived, but her brain still has a "boo boo", but you can't see with your eyes. It is called T/ABI (Traumatic/Aquired Brain Injury.) TT will be healing from this for the rest of her life, it takes a very long time to heal your brain. It makes TT very tired and sometimes confused.  That is why TT always takes a nap with you (sometimes even if you don't nap, I still have to!)  I know you have noticed that TT is terrible at your memory game or putting together puzzles (especially those halographic ones you like) It is also the reason TT has to wear sunglasses all the time and can't stand very loud noises, it hurts the "boo boo" in her brain.

Sometimes, TT needs you to remind her when she forgets simple things, like it is time to eat lunch or looking both ways before you cross a road! It's okay to laugh with TT as you try to understand.  Thank you for being patient when TT is slow or when my brain is too flooded to honor your request! Your TT chooses to be amused that you notice if she wears the same outfit as yesterday, right down to the socks on her feet!  Sometimes, TT doesn't remember things like this. Other times she just doesn't have the energy required to remedy the situation and simply gave up caring if she wore the same thing as yesterday, if it doesn't smell! I know it is hard to understand right now and that is okay!Your TT will keep answering all the "whys" she can and will repeat "I don't know" when she is simply too tired to put other words together.  Thank you for always putting a smile on your TT's face and for being so gracious to her!  Thank you for all the times you tell TT,  "I love you" and "I'm glad your here for a visit TT." Her heart melts when she hears "It's okay TT, I love you just the way you are." You both are the perfect example of "Faith like a child," faith that believes beyond reason and is a free gift of love without strings attached, no matter what! Your TT loves you dearly! Thank you Lord for letting me be an exhausted mess if it means being a part of your life!!!


Margie Cole said...

Lovely post. I am sure B & B will treasure this in years to come. But clearly they DO love you for who you are. And that is God's way for all of us. Thanks for the reminder

Farmgirl said...

They are such blessed children to have their TT. <3