Talk, talk, talk...................

It is so hard not to compare yourself to others. I have always thought of myself as one who "does her own thing". I am becoming increasingly aware that not comparing yourself to others is harder than I thought. I am also increasingly aware of how much of life revolves around talking and conversation. I can't begin to tell you how utterly exhausting this is for me. I can also sympathize a little with the autistic and their way of coping with communication deficits; simply recite facts or lines from movies that you remember. Spontaneous conversation is so much work!! I have the advantage of a memory of holding "polite conversation or small talk". You see language is more complex than I ever imagined before. Not only do words have to come out in the right order and context but they also must be accompanied with the correct body language to be interpreted by others correctly. SO MUCH WORK after an injury to your brain!! Hence the reason I much prefer communication through email or facebook. It can be done at your own time and eliminates the body language associated with face to face conversation. I know it too carries it's own set of misunderstandings and many people hate communicating this way! Can you tell my weekend was filled with lots of social events requiring polite conversation and talking?? Don't get me wrong, I still enjoy getting to know people but it is just exhausting and frusterating for me now :-) It seems like so much of lives revolves around TALKING......I hate to admit it but I am a "just send me a text" kind of girl now!!