Sunday, May 16, 2010

It's okay, Mom!

My mom came to visit me yesterday. We went to a couple of plant sales right around my house. It was a blast, then we headed for the mall :) While we were there, I was talked into upgrading my 'broken' cell phone (long story). After almost having a meltdown over it all because of all the questions I was asked to be able to do this and the loud background noise in the mall. My poor mom saw the "SOS" in my eyes and quickly got me to a quiet table near the back of the food court and got me a drink and a chicken quesadilla to help restore me!! As we were sitting there in silence, a severely disabled man pulled up at the table right next to us, my back was to him but my mom was facing him. Opening his bag of Combos was so exhausting for him that his head lightly fell forward and he fell sound asleep worn out by the effort it took. I saw my mom keeping an eye on him to make sure he was okay, and didn't need help. Then, as the man fell asleep, my mom's eyes filled with tears and she got up and threw our trash away. I looked back at the poor man all slumped over and knew right away why my mom had such a strong reaction. That is what doctors told Nate and my family would likely be my fate. I got up and wanted to hug my mom and say "It's okay, Mom" but I knew doing so would only create a scene in the mall as inevitably we would both be sobbing in the middle of the food court. Sometimes I forget that my family is all "recovering from my aneurysm too". This just reminded me of that!!

Thursday, May 6, 2010

a true story..................

Okay, so I got home from grocery shopping and was cleaning neurotically to unwind(this is after crashing for a nap, of course). I was listening to Twila Paris' song "God is in Control" because I still need to be reminded from time to time, when I saw today's mail sitting on the bar. Being highly "distractable", I sat down and began to open it, forgetting I was cleaning. The first letter I open is from the insurance company notifying me that our plan was terminated as of 4/1/10. The events of the last five years started flashing before my eyes and I must admit I could feel a panic attack coming on. So, I call poor Nate, who is at work, and tell him. Then the same events flash before his mind and he tells me he will take care of it right away. In the meantime, "God is in Control" is still playing softly in the background. I prayed about it and decided I needed to truly live what I believe; no panic attack. I continued to pray and called the Insurance company as Nate had instructed me. As it turns out, there was some simple "eligibility issue" between Nate's company and the insurance company. We were indeed fully covered with no lapse in coverage.
Also, Nate has taken another job (same industry, different company). His last day with his current company is tomorrow. This has been a very stressful few weeks to say the least!!! God is good :)