Okay, first a praise. Doctors recently did some testing for Lupus and other "vascular diseases". It was mostly, 'just to be sure' but the results came back fine. There are no concerns of larger vascular problems; at least for now:)I was praying all day for something to encourage me and this was an answer to my prayers!!
I was having a day where I felt totally out of control!! Ever have those days?? I felt a little like Chicken Little, "the sky is falling, the sky is falling". Instead of focusing on all the blessings in life I was fretting about Roth IRA contributions for this year, and years to follow, HOW SILLY!!! Who frets about that other than me, I mean seriously? Then it makes me start thinking about how my plan was to graduate college and get a good teaching job while I get my master's degree, of course. By then I figured I would probably want to have kids, cause that is how life goes, right??? NOT.... God had/has other plans and most days I happily accept this fact while other days I have a hard time accepting this. So now most days are filled with follow up doctor appointment and further medical testing and writing to people surviving aneurysms when they just need to talk to "someone who understands". Truly, I am thankful for all of this, I just needed to admit I don't always feel like I have it "all together" but seriously, who does?? I am right where God wants me and I am trying to "bloom where I am planted". Thanks for 'listening' to me rant as I work through things in my own silly litttle head! :)