I found this unpublished thought from this summer. I'm not sure why I never published it. Perhaps, I was still processing it then forgot to come back?? I'm sure I had more thoughts than I ended up writing about but they might just be lost forever!
Tuesday, October 7, 2014
|Views from my childhood home!|
Our worship leader Sunday, spoke words that I quickly jotted down so I wouldn't forget them. This is the gist of what he said, "God tells the trees to change and they do immediately, dropping all of their old leaves. When God tells us to change, are we that willing?" So, there I stood all teary eyed and pondering. I thought back to 2005; the year of change, big change, total and sudden change. I was not so willing as the trees. No, I spent everything I had left trying to "prove" I hadn't changed. I was sure I could convince therapists I didn't have a BRAIN INJURY!! If I had had the energy, I would have fought it kicking and screaming (ok, maybe I tried it a few times but I had NO filter then. Now I just have just a broken one!) Oh, silly tree scared to loose your pretty leaves! Then I started to think about a tree loosing its leaves. What was left of it was a bare trunk, the core of who it was, exposed against the realities of the coming fierce, cold season. Those pretty leaves couldn't save it from the reality of winter and would perhaps zap it of all the energy it would need to stay alive, to survive! Drop your leaves you silly tree. They are indeed a part of you. For a season they help to identify you. But, the core of who you are will survive and when the winter passes, new leaves will form and you will identify yourself with them once more. The new leaves will look much like the old ones but they will never be exactly the same, maybe they will be even thicker the next year, as your trunk grows stronger, and your roots go deeper, through the fiercest season. Let go silly tree, just LET GO!
|There can be beauty in the process of change!|
|This tree, in my current yard, is a good listener!|